NinjasDontFear

i. Today I stared at a handful of pills. I wriggled them around my hand until they formed a heart. How tragically ironic. I counted them and then put them back in their bottle. Today's not the day to be breaking stupid summer promises. - iii. I've tried forgetting everything that isn't you. I failed. I also tried forgetting everything that is you. I almost succeeded. - iv. Seventeen. Seventeen years my heart has been beating. Seventeen times you lied. Seventeen pills. I look at them everyday, but they remain in the confines of their white plastic prison.

If I am a diamond, I'm covered in dust. I used to shine in your light, But now I'm so dull you can't even see me. Diamonds aren't forever, apparently neither are we. Even though you said forever. You clearly don't know the meaning of the word. I held on to the belief for so long, that you were different. You could fix my broken. You know you could. I thought you did, but like everything else, just a mirage.

- I try to talk to you in words you no longer understand. You no longer speak my language. I think back to those days we spent; lying in the grass watching the clouds and naming the stars. Those memories feel so far away. Do you think about them too? - Three years ago I made you a blue friendship bracelet. You told me you really liked it, but then I never saw you wearing it. I often wonder what you did with it. - For the past week I've been having a reoccurring dream. It's dark and raining and I'm standing in the middle of railroad tracks, but the train never comes. It feels cold. It feels alone. It also feels like home. - The

ii. My name is Autumn and I never finish things. I quit everything. Not really. My name is Violet and I'm a liar. Not really. iv. I used to write songs about why I liked you, but they never made sense to you because you see things backwards. Or maybe I write things backwards. Or maybe my world is just upside down. vi. I once heard that all good things must end. I don't think that we will end however. We never even started. You never start things and I never finish them. Maybe we're meant to not be meant for each other. Or maybe Cupid needs to work on his aim. viii. I used to think that if I daydreamed outside enough, the cloud

you said my beauty reminds you of a flower. i reminded you that flowers die. your saddened face made me smile and hug you. I said that you remind me of dawn because you look beautiful in the morning and also when you are breaking. i told you that i like to be inspired by people who aren't famous. you told me that you like when i'm being cynical. i never know what to say when you look too deeply in my eyes.

If I died tonight, I regret nothing. No… I regret everything. But I do not regret that I have regrets. "Afterlife" Of course there is life after death. A new life; Reborn. But if you aren't content enough when you die… Your spirit remains? Regretregretregret. I have regrets. I'll miss you when you go. Forgive me. I want to move on too.