Ativani.Ativan by ~NinjasDontFear
Today I stared at a handful of pills. I wriggled them around my hand until they formed a heart.
How tragically ironic.
I counted them and then put them back in their bottle. Today's not the day to be breaking stupid summer promises.
I've tried forgetting everything that isn't you. I failed.
I also tried forgetting everything that is you. I almost succeeded.
Seventeen years my heart has been beating. Seventeen times you lied.
I look at them everyday, but they remain in the confines of their white plastic prison.
Just A MirageIf I am a diamond, I'm covered in dust.Just A Mirage by ~NinjasDontFear
I used to shine in your light,
But now I'm so dull you can't even see me.
Diamonds aren't forever, apparently neither are we.
Even though you said forever.
You clearly don't know the meaning of the word.
I held on to the belief for so long, that you were different.
You could fix my broken. You know you could.
I thought you did, but like everything else, just a mirage.
the soccer game.the thing is, i needthe soccer game. by ~estallidos
the deer to mean something.
i go to the soccer game and smile
and nod while something furious
inside of me is screaming.
a deer appears while the sun
is setting and it's like a scene
from a movie: green grass and gold rays
that spread out, tingeing our feet
with one last bit of wednesday.
everyone watches the deer and makes
noises of appreciation and i look
around and i think to myself
"okay, this is it, i am happy."
the deer is watching me and i try
to decide if it's a metaphor.
i want the deer to be death, see,
to represent fucking or blacking
out or apathy or loneliness.
someone does something